jasmine

you told me 32 ways
to make you smile
i did 31 within the first hour
you stood amazed
in your delighted shoes
bewildered but willing
didn't know what to do
so i grabbed your cold hand
pressed it to my beating heart and said
isn't it neat
how our bodies tick
and we can move our feet
whenever and however we please
you stared blindly while i waited politely
in the doorway by our school
some cars passed and i noticed someone was singing
"us" by regina spektor
you know how i had a crush on her
i know you don't like grey skies
we know our multiplication tables
you got straight a's while i was writing fairytales
and looking out window seals asking why
the sun shine liked my eyes
and kissed my cheek
when it knew i was in love with the moon
and of course with you
well i sped it up
'cause you don't like slow songs
you're more of the literal kind
yeah you're more like the ocean's waves
you get closer at the end of the day
when you know i can't see your face
when you're sure i'm already lost
love is oh so lovely
but it also comes with a cost

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for the last 9 hours, i've been going crazily at microbiology terms, adenoviruses, rhinoviruses, rabies, protozoas, thricomatis vaginalis, hep a-e, trying to make the least sense of the words that didn't mean a thing to me for the past 13 weeks. after tomorrow and the 11th, victorious is me.
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for now,
this is who i yearn to be.
give me fierce baby, fierce ! -tyra banks ftw.

the downing of redbull is to soar, out of this town of void pummeled by lost hopes. end, where? only seems like the beginning. " push on, you'll get there eventually." no. eventually is just like sugar-coated never.
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saw maccas advertising the consumption of mega bigmac on the 14th november. extra ingredient- hope. so now burgers have hope. well then, pass a big mac over.

first in two semesters that ive completed a full past year paper. applause worthy, and this comes in hand with eight hours of work. beginning to associate the new science lib with terms like home & sleep scarcity. surely, as agreed by the majority population at school.


exams, what can i say. one hell of a bittersweet race i would run (despite immense denials) fervently for. the thought of being just a mere 2 weeks away from home thrills every bone in me. even more so with the new toy mom called to inform me about.
" so complicated. don't think you can handle it, not for you this holiday."


aha, don't be too sure mother. i have my hands all set for sole ownership the moment my eyes set on this lo, behold dignified machine. made a virtual list in my biochemistry-drenched mind of the what-to-eat, where-to-go, who-to-find. it's been three years since australia happened yet the anticipation to home grows with the coming of years.


lastly, to end this miserable alphabets infested box, my mother needs to know she still 2 weeks to live up to her promise made this year. if not, dire consequences to be expected.

my sporadic uptakes here probably have soaked up all the narcissism in the world, couldn't have been anymore self centered.

when you left, i said i wouldn't miss you.
but no, come back now. i miss you & always have.
off, with the faces to keep!

i am bigger than this, bigger than this i am. feeling a tad poopy, so i am going to blog. good things don't come easy.

i am the elephant, you are the ant.

i cannot breathe. expectations, too many. worrying, must stop.
work, work, work. life, where are you. i feel like i've lost you. come back. i only look forward to decemeber, & the anticipation to hongkong's trip magnifies ten folds daily. oh yes, christmas and turkey. i like turkey and jam.


cousin's visit to perth. my first visitor since melbourne! my mom has withdrew her words once again. she never visits ): sad, her daughter is. my vision is clearer than my brain's function! high on redbull + coffee + urinary system !
whoo.
overactive gluconeogenesis, whoa biochemistry, whoa!
shooo shooo shoo GAH rush!