jasmine

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i am going to church this sunday to give thanks.

i want to be passionate in what i do forever, albeit mundane it may seem at that point of time, i want to still feel the fire at the end of the day.

going cold turkey on facebook day 1.

hi roxanne, wish i could see how're you doing with exam preparations. heard its getting quite warm in UK, hope you're enjoying the sun as much as you're wrenching your hair with the study. miss you number 1, and take care (:

hi vanessa, has smu gotten back at you. i know you can't read this, like how you don't do blogs. wish i could call you right now, but got to focus ! and your voice makes me miss everything back home. so im typing all the things i want to say to you (even though you wont know of this) here as though as i'm writing on your wall. miss you too my other number 1, take care!

and to all the other people i stalk so religiously. I WILL BE BACK, HEH HEH.

dear God,

i don't mean to question your plans, but why do you give me everything but take away that only determinant factor. why do you give me high distinctions in everything but that one thing that makes all these grades matter. i'm sorry i asked.

jasmine xx

i somewhat do not believe in meritocracy anymore.

i have to get over my fear of speaking in front of ten thousand eyes in 2 days.

i like to read about people living their dream, my dream. it makes me excited, and full of anticipation. will i feel what they feel, see what they see. but also, it makes me sad, it terrifies me. what if i don't become, what if i remain the reader and never the writer.